a familiar face.

Seeing someone you once knew can ignite so many different emotions. Depending on who they were to you, your stomach might drop or your mind might start to race. Today I saw a person I was close to for many years, whom I remember fondly. I still felt sick to my stomach. It's never easy exchanging pleasantries and faking small talk with someone you used to know like the back of your hand. Eventually, though, all of the familiar feelings I associated with them and had for them came flooding back. I felt comforted, safe, and still, nervous. Do I like feeling this way? Do I miss this person? Should I reconnect with them? Many thoughts raced around my head as I tried to remain present in our conversation.

It is important to remember why you have grown out of a person's life. I'm still guilty of dwelling on the good memories and wondering why we ever went our separate ways. I am laughing with them right now in this moment, so why was it ever incompatible?

I have to acknowledge that it is okay to have feelings toward someone and simultaneously understand that you both are better growing independently from one another.

That's all I have to say right now, as my brain is still scattered from earlier, but I felt I should publish this loose (and rather difficult to follow) train of thought incase anyone else needed to hear it. I'll get back to this one when I can think clearly.

That's all for now, folks!